Sometimes, other people exhaust me. I feel a visceral tiredness that manifests when I'm at work, when I'm in a group of people — anything that involves continuous interaction. I ache to be alone. When prevented from retreating to a safe space I am left wallowing in deep discomfort and ashamed that I am not enjoying myself more.
Whose Party? is a visualization of my experience with social anxiety. It is an exploration of how challenging even seemingly casual interactions can be. Bright decorations are juxtaposed with nervous partygoers. The party seems fun but is underscored by an unsettling quality: a bad feeling you just can't shake. This collection of moments are interpretations of how I often move through the world, struggling against a happy facade, stuck at a party I'd love to leave.
